How I'm feeling: Tired. Sore and starting to get excited and a bit anxious. Last week was a whole bunch of sleep. I honestly was sleeping like 18+ hours a day because I could. I just napped when I felt like I needed. This week I got back to Yoga, Monday and Tuesday and it felt great. The pelvic pain is back with a vengeance but I am trying to just go with it hopefully meaning that it's him coming down and getting ready. I got my back adjusted for the first time in months (hard with my belly and a chiro with no drop table) and it was remarkable. Everything just shifted back into place.
Weight gain/loss: Ahh, this week I went over the 60 threshold. 65 my scale said, but I have been yo-yo-ing by 5 or more so I will weigh again tomorrow. I was hoping to hold onto the under 60 as I had for about 3-4 weeks, but at this point I can't do much of anything about it. Also, my arms the last three weeks have past the point of no return, they make me quite uncomfortable. Just keeping it real y'all.
Stretch marks: Yep it's NUTS how they have kicked in since 35 weeks. I barely had 2 then and now I have so many and more and more on the sides of my belly button. They aren't too pretty but not much you can do about it but be crazy grateful our baby boy is almost here.
Sleep: This is still going surprisingly better than the last couple of weeks. Turning over in bed is really really hard and hurts my pubic bone SO incredibly much, but I am not getting up to pee super often (maybe 2-3 times) and if I awake I feel rested typically even if it's 5am.
Diet/Cravings/Aversions: Last week I couldn't get enough fruit, now this week honestly I am just eating less. Wanting more meals and turkey sandwiches with chips in the middle.
Movement: He is moving in there! It's such a blessing to feel and grateful in times of worry. He does seem to be tired still on days that I am tired, but lately anytime I eat he goes nuts!
What I'm loving:
Symptoms: Swelling, Ear Aches and fluid in ears, Higher BP (went up at last appt, and have been watching it since.) We actually were in the hospital last night making sure everything is alright. Better safe than sorry. Being tired, sometimes heart racing, really hard to "get up" off things, shoulder pain is back and boobs not fitting into any bra I own.
What I'm looking forward to: Honestly, last night we weren't sure if we would be induced due to high BP, so we packed everything and pretty much had an open mind that we could be meeting our little man. I was actually really calm and relieved and excited. I definitely would love to avoid being induced at all costs, but having an action plan and a date that he would be here was so exciting as well. Of course we were sent home with the all clear, but I do think it's odd I was so ready and excited. So this week I need to start doing the extra walking, tea and other things to get it all cooking, but I am not yet super motivated to. Still tired and ok with resting.
Best moment of the week: Seeing my inbox hit real zero. For me all things that really needed to be wrapped up felt so good! Also, Matt and I had a good laugh the other night, because Mya is staying very close to me these days, especially near my tummy and lower tummy and I keep thinking that my water is going to break right on her. I don't know why this was so funny to us at the time, but we were laughing like crazy.
Verse that I am clinging to: Deuteronomy 31:8 : The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." I woke up earlier this week at 4am and just couldn't sleep, so I pulled open my devotions and started to read and the Lord was really calling me to just release fear. There is SO MUCH UNKNOWN with the arrival of this little guy. When is it going to happen? Where? How long? Will I be able to rock it naturally? Will it be impossible? What will he look like? Anywhoo. I have been feeling a bit of failure cause I am never going to be "ready" but this verse and the Lord is really saying to me.
Gina I go before you. I already KNOW the unknown. You just need to look to me and trust me. Focus on me. This has been such a place of peace. God is good y'all. It definitely takes work to Abide but he is GOOD!
Also, if we could ask for prayer over two things. That if possible he will come before July 8th, if it's the Lord's will and also that when labor starts that it progresses and won't go for days or be unknown. I know I have NO control at all over these things and that the Lord has the perfect plan, but these are what we are lifting up and surrendering over.
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Just keeping it real most days are just in PJ shorts and a tank top without a bra, since bra's don't fit much. Pretty much just that outfit and a pair or two of yoga maternity pants from Target. I also have started to go just a sports bra to blooma yoga, it's the baby Z coming out party! Naked Belly till he comes, stretch marks and all!!!
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