We were waiting expectant. I think that is why experiencing losing another baby this week at 7.5 weeks, (our second loss in a row) is so deflating. Like getting the air knocked out of your chest x 2 + you remember the exact feeling.
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We were under great controlled care, all things looked great, felt such hope, coming to the Lord with each of our fears and anxieties and replacing it with Trust in Gods plan. Expectancy instead of preparing for pain.
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That’s why we are perplexed this is part of His plan. I am just bummed that losses like this while going through secondary infertility make starting over seem so daunting, deflating. Now we walk forward step by step.
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I just keep coming back to the word expectant. A place I can be because of Jesus. The words of God say “So we are convinced that every detail of our lives is continually woven together to fit into God’s perfect plan of bringing good into our lives, for we are his lovers who have been called to fulfill his designed purpose.” Romans 8:28 TPT
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I am fighting to believe this promise and this set of verses “So it is impossible for God to lie for we know that his promise and his vow will never change! πππAnd now we have run into his heart to hide ourselves in his faithfulness. This is where we find his strength and comfort, πππ for he empowers us to seize what has already been established ahead of time—an unshakeable hope!” Hebrews 6:18 TPT
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So here we stand in another storm. Sad, yet steady clinging to expectancy of the Good even when it feels the opposite. As we run into His heart to hide ourselves in his faithfulness, we are covered by His Grace.
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